Thursday, December 14, 2006

asleep on the couch

If you don't feel like being traumatized, feel free to stop reading now. Because I've got a bucketful of trauma down there. But I can't bear to keep this inside my head any longer. I've got to do something to get it moving on and along and through.

A two year old baby girl was killed a week or so ago in the area where I live. I only saw local coverage - so I don't know to what extent it was covered elsewhere, if at all. Her mother's drug dealing boyfriend decided that she was cheating on him, so the bastard took a sippy cup, but a lethal dose of GHB in it, and gave it to the precious, precious little baby girl to teach the mother a "lesson". The baby girl drank it, and went into horrible convulsions of horror and suffering.

By the time her mom arrived home, she was just about dead. She died shortly thereafter. The bastard was asleep on the couch. Asleep on the couch. Asleep on the couch.

The half empty sippy cup was found near the little girl. With the words GHB written on the side.

Every time I've looked at M this week, all I can see is the infinite preciousness and trust she offers me. She takes what I give her, she eats what I feed her. She drinks from the sippy cups I offer her. I have not been able to wrap my arms around how this sick fuck could have possibly done this to a little baby girl.

Asleep on the couch.

It's beyond me. And I cry for that precious, precious little girl, who so trustingly drank from what was offered her. And it scares me, the sadism and hate and cruelty in this world. In our neighborhoods. Towards our children. Towards ourselves.

Rest in peace, little one.

44 comments:

sweatpantsmom said...

This story just makes me cry.

Unbelievable.

KC said...

It's sickening. Literally sickening to think someone could do that to a child. To imagine there are people out there who have such a blackness of soul, such hate, is immensely sad.

And hard to have faith when things like this happen. What purpose does this serve?

It's pure evil. I hope he rots in hell.

Andrea said...

I don't have any words for this.

Anonymous said...

It IS pure evil. As a reporter, I covered so much child abuse that never even made it into the news, I was horrified by it. I don't and can't, comprehend what kind of person harms a child, ever.

Anonymous said...

Why is the world like this?

Mrs. Chicky said...

No words for such a heinous act. Just tears.

- Mrs. Chicky

Anonymous said...

OH My god. Jen this story will haunt me today. I will be keeping that little girl close to my heart & thoughts. I just don't understand cruelty, hate and evil such as this. I will give my kids an extra-hard hug & an even sloppier wet kiss today because of this story.
I can't believe it hasn't made national news. Then again, maybe it has....I've been bad about keeping up with that is going on.

Anonymous said...

This makes me feel so angry. I don't understand how evil like this can exist.
I will hug my kids a little harder & give them extra sloppy kisses today because of this story.

Anonymous said...

These sicko stories seem to be in the news here a lot - or maybe I just remember them more than the rest of the bad news. Like the rest of the commenters, I find it beyond comprehension. I believe there is a special hell for these perpetrators. And God help me if I ever encounter one in real life... I don't possess the restraint not to retaliate.

Deezee said...

this is too horrible, too unthinkable. I constantly struggle with reconciling the contradiction of the world: all that is truly wonderful existing beside all that is so wrong, so dreadful.

there are things that will always be beyond my understanding.

Anonymous said...

oh dear god.

Anonymous said...

oh dear god.

Anonymous said...

oh dear god.

Pendullum said...

So utterly tragic...

Anonymous said...

oh dear god.

Anonymous said...

We have gotten coverage of the story in Sacramento. "Sick f*ck" about covers it. I have no further words.


Peace,

~Chani

Penny said...

Jesus Christ.

That's all I can say.

Anonymous said...

What to say? It's sick and sad and really, I don't understand why this happens.

Lillithmother said...

I don't normally swear but this story...

Fucking bastard! To take a little girls life becaus of his emotional immaturity! I hope the fucker gets years and years of imprisonment for his crime...I hear in-mates don't have tolerate for adults who abuse children. If I sound cruel, I'm not, I'm wishing him a more compassionate future in prison than the little girl got.

He betrayed a child's trust (the fucking, FUCKING BASTARD)...I have no doubt he'll be paying for this one up above too.

Anonymous said...

I'm speechless and horrified.

I can't even begin to understand someone coming up with the idea, let alone executing it.

Sick sick sick.

meno said...

Words are really useless in this situation. I have the primitive urge to kill. I can't really blame me either. He should drink the rest of the cup.

carrie said...

Being a mother has made me so much more sensitive when I hear things like this (not that I wasn't before, well, you know) because you can't help but insert your child in the place of the other. You can't help but think, what if that was my little girl?

So, so horrible.

Carrie

Anonymous said...

I can't take things like this. Tears me up.

Just...shaking head.

(OT I hope it's okay but I linked to you from my blog.)

flutter said...

You know, I am a birthmom, I gave a child up because I didn't feel that I could be the best for her. Then fucking idiots like this, take precious innocent little ones and do this to them. It just kills me.

acumamakiki said...

i can barely even read words like this. want to cover my ears and sing lalalalala because i can't comprehend that people have this much hate and evil inside. being a parent is the single scariest thing i've ever done because of the world and the scary freaks that are here. i'm going to go hug and kiss my girl right now.

Anonymous said...

it is the worst thing you could imagine.

this morning i have to serve an injunction (court order) on a drug dealer to keep him away from his partner and their child. when the police kicked the door in of the woman's flat she was out cold from drugs and drink on the sofa. the 18 month old child didn't bat an eyelid at a bunch of uniformed police officers smashing down the door and coming into his home. he was so used to heavy stuff happening. this is the woman's second child. the first one was removed at 8 months old after she broke his arm.

its a sick world.

Anonymous said...

My God. How can things like this happen? How can something be so fundamentally broken inside someone that they are capable of such unspeakable things? I don't understand. But, it makes me want to hang onto my babies and never let them out of my sight.

lildb said...

Now I get why you agreed so vehemently with toyfoto about how people hate.

wow.

wow.

Penny said...

Becoming a mother makes you the mother of all children. From now on each wounded, abandoned, frightened child is yours. You live in the suffering mothers of every race and creed and weep with them. You long to comfort all who are desolate.- Charlotte Gray


A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path --Agatha Christie (1890 - 1976)

Rest in Peace sweet baby. Trust and Love were betrayed, but Comfort and Love are yours now.

Prayers to the mother, too. Even though it is so hard to imagine a woman trusting her child with a man who beat her and made a date rape drug. Poor choices. Her regret and remorse will be endless. And, I do not wish that as penance for any mother who loved their child and risked circumstance. Whatever that woman was thinking, whatever she is thinking now, I pray for peace and growth and forgivenenss for her.

I will try to pray for the man who did it. It will be hard. That beautiful interaction of a baby taking drink and nourishment with an inborn, innate trust and need.. it is horrible to think of the defenselessness of the child and the betrayl and the harm and pain and suffering.

When I read stories like this, I come apart in two. The mother in me wants to rip the skin from his body and raise him on a stake for all to see and be warned not to touch our children, be they men or women. The Christian faith in me, knows that only prayer can stop the pain and possibly prevent other occurrances. They happen all the time, but our prayers are working in all the events that don't occur. Blind Faith, critics call it easy - it's not. It's very, very hard.

Prayers and Blessings to all the mothers here and fathers, too, who are hurt deeply by this story.

reluctant housewife said...

Oh God. How evil - I hope that bastard rots in jail. I hope he is made to suffer, since he obviously has no conscience.

Poor sweet baby.

Anonymous said...

I am weeping.....

I work in a funeral home and have for over 7 years. You see a lot of things in that amount of time....yet, the worse thing by far was the death of a 5 month old.

The grandparents had contacted DFS regarding the welfare of this child, the mother was young and VERY naive (I still don't know how I feel about her) and very much under the influence of the father. He killed his baby by smothering him. AND before they had proof he did it (there were suspicions), I watched him walk around this funeral home trying to play the part as a grieving parent.

It is beyond me how anyone could harm anything so innocent. It is sickening and saddening. We need to lift our eyes toward God and pray...prayers for the innocent children as well as for adults suffering from such sickness. It is hard to pray for the adults, but equally as important.

mamatulip said...

So sad. And so absolutely unnecessary. :(

Diana said...

Here by way of Oh, The Joys.

And can I say this story just breaks my heart. I hope they kill him in jail.

Anonymous said...

I came via OTJ, this is just horrific!! I will never understand how one human being can do that to another innocent one, or just anyone for that matter. How sad!

I saw on the news last week that this mother put her 10 weeks old (I think) in the microwave!! I can't fathom the cruelty of that!!

wendy boucher said...

That is horrifying. I'm glad you talked about it though. It doesn't hurt to remind ourselves about the rest of the world sometimes.

Juliness said...

Oh Jen...my heart is breaking at this news. I appreciate you sharing this because in moments like these we gain real perspective on the course of our lives.

I am beyond grateful for the words of Flutter. Her generous spirit gives hope to those of us who have been diagnosed with infertility but long to be a mother.

I cannot imagine the horror of a mother who has lost a child but I do mourn with her.

Momish said...

How can it be that there really is such evil is this world? Things like this really make me question God.

Anonymous said...

I'm with Penny on this. So sad.

sunshine scribe said...

THat makes me sob. I hate to think of the ugliness that exists in the hearts of some people in this world. And that it would be directed at an innocent child. I don't have the words ... at least any that aren't expletives.

Anonymous said...

Here via OTJ-

I have a 20 month old, so sweet and trusting. My heart breaks for the suffering this sweet baby had to go through while this asshole slept.

That's a special kind of evil.

crazymumma said...

no words.

Kristin said...

When did human life, especially the life of a child, lose it's value?

What the hell is wrong with people?

My only consolation is knowing that prison is a very very ugly place for monsters who hurt children... if there is a pecking order, they are at the bottom of the last guy's shoe.

I have to go hug my kids now.

Annaleigh said...

Truly awful. My heart goes out to that poor baby. :(

Annaleigh
www.aswaterspassingby.org/blessedfearscapes/

Fallen said...

Wow is all I can say... Unbelievable the hurt that people can do to one another. Unreal.